Ms Da solitary paradise

Friday, September 15, 2006

「 Ms Da Yakking Away At 1:10 am 」
2 freaking screams!

A friend told me this..

"you seem to be a bit lost about your life again. like you're not motivated to continue your studies and sort of like not so concentrated in your singing too. you need someone to boost you from stoning mode to a hyper mode, cos it's like you're in hibernation."

Am I really in hibernation? Maybe I'm simply too tired.

Work, studies, test, projects, deadlines. It's driving me nuts. Sometimes we do things not because we enjoy it or like it; we do it because it's the so-called 'right' thing to do. Sounds kind of pathetic, but it's true. If given a choice, I would NOT want to go through all these. I want to be free and just enjoy life. But, it's not possible. It takes a lot of courage to do something not conventional. Even if you aren't bothered by how others look at you, you have to consider how others may look at your loved ones, in my case my parents.

I want them to be happy n proud of me. But sadly, I can't recall anything which I did that make them proud. I'm not academically-inclined, not excellent at anything and definitely don't have any skills to speak of. I'm just an ordinary girl, so ordinary.

Sigh. I'm like a car without petrol. Losing energy and momentum. Everybody's moving forward, but I remain stagnant. I wanted so much to move on like everybody else, but I can't. Or rather, I didn't want to. Maybe my mind and body are protesting. They need a break to recharge. Maybe I should take a short holiday soon. = )

Anyway, what I'm trying to say is sometimes it's tiring to do the 'right' thing. It may be right, but it may not be what you really want. Sigh. I'm so sad..

Here's a question for all..

Would you
A. Go through all those conventional shit cos you know it's the right thing to do though u may not like it much; or
B. Do something you really enjoy/like but it's not the usual path that others take?

Comments:

For me... I chose the conventional road. Cos my ultimate dream was to be a manicurist n a designer but too bad la! I dun think this kind of job can give me a good living to survive in SPORE!!! SIGH~! That's reality.... =(

# posted by

Valerie : 4:40 pm

Yah, that's why i am planning to earn enuff money before migrating to nepal to lead a peaceful life happily ever after. Attain the ultimate state of mind!!

# posted by

Anonymous : 1:26 am